galled Yeah, with acceptance, I am also reading through different places I am in, just seeing them as they are.
Just writing a quick rundown of what I did with that site (voltra):
I talked in the user-run discord server, and am closer friends with them, while knowing they don't want me to hurt myself over and over, as they said so. They said they recognise the owner is being narcissistic.
I donated to the site and asked for a refund, and communicated to the owner through additional information. He responded to the case, through he seeing it through his email, within a five minute timeframe. He wrote a personal message in that case too, he refunding to me. He responded within two days, a lot before the timeframe to go into either his or my favour. This gives me the insight that he responded as /soon/ as he saw it in his email.
Keep in mind there are messages I sent to him to his email, albeit his site email (I deleted some of the emails, except for one or two conversations, so he knows my email.) He has also said to someone else, that emails sent from that admin site email don't always send to the other person, which gives me the impression he may need to reach out to me via his personal email to recover my accounts.
I already contacted him through discord dm, yet talked a lot to him in a casual oral manner, in which he said only one thing : he will let me back in the site, after first refunding me, in which he said to open a paypal case, which I already did. He, after years of having me and ignoring me in the discord server of the site, kicked me out of the site server he runs, thoughtlessly abandoning an important form of contact to me.
I filled in an appeal form on some of the google forms around the site, which I hope is still being linked to his site email, to talk to him, after he kicked me out of the server. I also linked the appeal forms to my friends, so they can choose to contact him if they want to, even if just to go back to a site they used to love, to solve their unresolved tension, which otherwise, marginalises their instincts.
People I know in the user server, and know about his abuse to me, recently appeared back on the site, so the boundary of recognising my anger is steady. He acknowledged he will let me back in in his site, also saying I should be aware of what is around me, other than his site.
LETTER START (TO WRITE WITHIN THE ACTUAL SITE):
Dear Voltra community,
Hello, it is beautiful to be back on this site again.
Thank you for letting me back in, @ site owner :
The blackout has been really scary, and I love that Vivienne got rescued.... (part of site history lore)